start of hostess lifee

today was my first day as the hostess. so how is it? ? i dun like it! seriously. standing there. answering calls. taking reservation. bringing in guests in to their table. doing paper wor which has many many complicated procedures. my tian. I MISS WORKING ON THE FLOOR!!!! ((( with all the fun ppl!!! ahhh!! at the hostess stand, only gt one or two there. then most of the time they speak in canto, which is alien language to me. ahhhh… I SERIOUSLY MISS WORKING ON THE FLOOR!! send me back thr soon !!! but sending me back also means im not performing up to standard. so ya.. hais.. but cynthia say she wanna try hostess at least for the last mth! so maybe i can swop with her or sth! :D hehe!

wed & thurs are so so near!!! weeheeeeee!~! :D

CANT WAIT!

i pray tt papa leg will be alright! and i hope ah yang will be free to go visit him with me on wed morning! and i pray tt papa can be discharged and recover real sooooonnn!!! pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee!

“colourful” world

was talking to cynthia today aft work while waiting for company bus. as we talked and talked, we realize. wow. what a “colourful” world it is. and we start to wonder if our future life partner wld be like this as well. hais. she shared with me some gross incident that happened today. and oh my. its rly a complicated and dark world out there. its rly damn gross and i totally sian diao when cynthia told me those stuff. yucks!

tmr i will be going to the hostess stand alr. and I am rly very scared! and the supervisor who dun like me is the direct supervisor for hostess i think. hais. gg for me i rly hope i will be able to pick up things fast and not let her have any chance to pounce on me. scary hippo teeth argh! went to work today and got said by her alr. so i am even more sure that she doesn’t like me . but the thing is i didnt even offend her! zzz!

and the more i think of tmr, the more i bu sher de working on floor with those ppl i like. hais. and today at lunch, when logan say its ur last meal man. ahhhhh make me so sian. hope i still can go on same break with them. hope i still can laugh and talk with them.

and tt day i went dentist, the dentist say my teeth is almost done. but no matter how i see, i still think my teeth is ugly or isit bo bian one? kos my teeth size are irregular? ahhhhh….

okay, this doesnt seem to be a happy post, once again LOL! but nvm! my off days, wed and thurs are comingggggg!!

will be meeting up with ock&friends and rat and ky and yj they all!! :D:D happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :D

a new blog

i got a new blog. a place where i can talk to myself in? LOL. hahaha!

recently have been feeling troubled? sad? lost?

papa may have to amputate his leg if the wound continues to be unclean or sth. i really pray that God’s healing will be upon him and that he will be healed! pleasee.. as much as I felt distant and cold tt time when i visit papa, when i heard this news, i went totally.. blank? and started tearing in the train. i felt fear. the kind of fear that i used to have very often when im young. papa, kuai dian hao qi lai !

and abt r. i really feel very very guilty. i was lookin at r fb photo and the sense of guilt came over me. once again. he is a very nice person and all. and i nv expect this type of thing to happen. but still, it happened. and i really dunno how to handle this prob. and i really pray that he will get well soon!

I find it very weird. though i felt troubled and all, I dunno why whenever i see ppl i know, like friends, I will auto change to happy/high mode. I dunno why. im not being fake. but.. its jus an auto thing. but whenever im alone, the “down” feeling creeps in again and invade my heart..

work has been ok. but still making mistakes and learning. and will be changing to hostess soon. wonder what is in store for me. hais. today was assigned to do the stewarding as the part-timer didnt show up. so for the whole night, i jus deploy the oval tray, wipe utensils. haha. qt okay, jus that very very hot! and i alomost puke when this bowl of creamy sauce came in. luckily im jus standing in for a day. 3 more days to being the hostess. wish me luck.

gd night. im still feeling… low?